I started to work with Sara and Simba in November last year.
I can say, life is treating me good in general. I love Chiang Mai, I got a great job, good people and a high quality life. I would describe my childhood as happy, full of abundance, growing up with a horse, two brothers, good friends and the nature.
Meditation, Exercising, good food, healthy sleep and a decent social life were part of my routine over the last year. But still I had this heavy dark downs, which people in general call normal. But for me it is not NORMAL, it may be COMMON.
Me being an optimistic, joyful person couldn’t accept these darkness. I’m not talking about the natural lows and highs which are depending on hormonal levels, climate, food, also…I’m talking about dark shit with very scary thoughts!
A heavy breakup hurt me more than once during the last year and I still could feel the deep sadness, grief.
I always had a wiser, older, more experienced person in my life. I could go to and ask questions and discuss life! Healing practicer, TCM-mediciner, psychologists, older friends, teachers, brothers…
One severe down moment led me to ask my yoga teacher for a spiritual teacher, a guide, a mentor. I got connected to Fah! A beautiful, strong woman deep in the jungle of San Kamphaeng located next to a wonderful river. Staying with her and getting deeper in touch with the Buddhist culture opened doors for my healing path. I’m very grateful to call her my first spiritual teacher in life.
Things happened, settled in. More meditation and self care. Still dark sadness on some days. Still unanswered questions which books couldn’t give me since years already.
Philosophy, Psychology, Religions, Sociology, Spirituality, Science….Plenty of books, to fill this hole, to answer these questions no one ever talks about, but we feel them deeply.
Being tired of small talks, of people telling me how beautiful I am. Tired of meditation, but still a strong, controlling monkey mind. Tired of having great routines, but still sadness and heaviness. Tired of low vibes, bad habits, negativity and unconsciousness.
Talking to my very good friend at work, led me to Sara and Simba.
Easy, simple. First appointment for free. Going there for a health examination. No expectations. Entering their house felt like arriving home immediately. Being with them lits your energetic fire in minutes. You grow and feel amazing being so accepted.
Sitting with both of them. Light, warm, fresh room. Drinks. Talks.
I opened myself and my heart after a couple of minutes talking with them. Explained my history. Psychosis, Divorced parents, Rejections, Death of the horse, working in shifts, questions….
Ok, the nutritive side was more or less in order. Here and there some little adaptations. My Iris analyzation showed that I urgently should stop smoking. “Not now, anytime. I like it too much and don’t want it enough right now!” I said these word many times during the last two years.
Main topics: Emotions, needs, rising and holding energy, finding out about my benefits, my no go areas, relationships, work.
Shortly after I got an accident and broke my collar bone. Thanks lovely universe!I definitely needed to slow down these days. Just 3 days before the accident I told my friend, that I urgently need holidays. Phaaaaam, big break.
Being at home, only left handed, very mindful, every move step by step, slowly by slowly. Laying around in different spaces at my beautiful home, reading books, listening to podcasts, watching series, eating good food and taking most care of myself than I ever did before in my life.
I am a nurse. A real pediatric nurse, deep from my heart.
After some days the idea plopped in my mind, to stay with Sara and Simba. They got a beautiful, warm decorated, light guest room with everything you need for a self treating time. Talking about money over 3 days. Sorrows, thoughts, relaxing, finding a solution.
I moved in. For 2 weeks.
This time changed a lot for me. Especially spiritually. I meditate since 6 years and I’m mostly open for different perceptions, for alternative medicine and for spiritual things in life. But as I grew up in the west and did western studies in nursing, my view needed a mostly scientific approach for me to believe anything.
I’m not going to explain the happenings with Sara, Simba und Erik too deeply. For some good reasons. First of all, it is impossible, as most of these things are way beyond words. They are on the level of feeling. Hard to describe. People often hold on to words which cuts freedom in accepting other terms. I would like to invite every person to experience all this by themselves in order to find the most fitting terms for these things.
Many channels opened in myself and I got deeply connected to the universal source. Energy level raised intensively and I experienced sensations, feelings, thoughts which I never experienced before. In combination with a balanced, plant based, healthy diet, stopping smoking and drinking and starting to slowly exercise again.
I’m very grateful to have them in my life, on my spiritual path, even though it wasn’t always easy. I’m deeply grateful for their patience, for their advices, for their openness towards my very critical questions. Being absolutely honest with them felt always right. Even when I criticized some things they did. I needed to. I needed to open every single question in myself in oder to come to a point.
We visited Dr.Wang for Chinese medicine, went to organic markets and Buti’s farm outside of Chiang Mai. We went together to TRE (trauma releasing exercises) und we adapt my plan to every new situation as things changed so quickly.
I”m a white horse. I’m inpatient and if I really want something, I want it and I get it. Getting a slight idea of what’s waiting for me during the spiritual work, I got so curious and amazed, that I wouldn’t stop digging deeper. Getting it one after the other. Discussing again with Sara and Simba and proceeding with the next step to the next level.
Detox, Emotional Releases, Spiritual Awakening, Colon Cleansing, Liver Flush, Inner Child Work, Detaching from old patterns and behavior, Forgiving and Accepting, stopping blaming and judging…
During my time with them I met incredible people. Chinese tea master, angels, healer, special exotics. Beautiful people…
I’m still in the beginning of my path and I’m happy to feel, that things are getting clearer. Everything starts to make a lot of sense and connect. I am always happy to share more about my journey whenever someone got questions. I deeply believe, that everyone can start to wake up from a sleeping mode, in which many people are caught. Waking up means living, means enjoying every single tiny moment of life. Seeing, seeing all the beauty, seeing all the light!
Yours Hanna – another white horse